Okay so it hasn’t been 84 years but it feels like it. Where to start? I wish I knew but that’s life so let’s just go with it. There’s so many things I want to talk about…

I guess I’ll start with expectations. You shouldn’t ever set them for anyone but yourself. EVER! People will always let you down. Not everyone’s heart or intentions are in the same place as yours. It’s that simple and I don’t feel I need to elaborate. No one is as good or good hearted as you think they are. Trust me, I’ve had plenty experience and I’ve even let people I love down. Thankfully they still love me.

What happened to everyone? Really? Morals completely went out the window. Don’t worry guys, mine did too. Luckily, momma didn’t raise no fool and I make mistakes and learn from them. Always the hard way. But you know what I’ve noticed. A lot. I talk too much. I put on. Great show but I’m always watching and listening. Especially to the things you don’t say. Here it goes.

So when it comes to dating. We’ve all been burned. Not only that, we aren’t satisfied. WHAT IF. What if something if better comes along? I see all these other people, they have a perfect life. Some people are chasing their dreams to run from their reality. This couple has the perfect family (oh burn). Oh they just built a new house…they went skiing and to Mexico! Him and his wife go out together every weekend! What you don’t see is, them fighting in the driveway because she’s had too much to drink, AGAIN. Because he’s at work ALLL THE TIME (he works this much because she demands so many things).

She’s drinking more… maybe 2 glasses (light weight) of wine and that’s the key to relaxation. You know what she wants. She wants him to come home and let her “release” the load. He’s a guy though. They are supposed to be super hero’s. At least they think they are. That means solving all the problems. As a woman, what she really wants is for a man to listen, let her complain and hold her while she cries. Maybe whip a kid or 2’s ass. We don’t need a superhero, we already are one.

What about him? He wants and NEEDS his ego boosted. He needs to feel like he has done enough and he is enough. Men are simple. Make sure his underwear are clean, he’s got a towel to dry off on, and let him hang with the boys. But if he’s a cheating ass hole. F that. We can discuss this in a later blog.

So that’s a part of where us as single people can be mislead. Married life isn’t perfect. It’s a choice. Those married couples want to kill each other daily but I admire them because it’s too easy to tap out. They don’t. Keep fighting the good fight guys! Also, dating these days SUCKS. If you’re married, you married that person for a reason, find it again and stay with them if you’re unhappy, why? To find a wife is a good thing!

As you’re looking for the next best thing you’re also questioning who you are. You should. If you are questioning it, then you know there is something to improve. Don’t ever stop improving or changing. We are meant to evolve.

Being single isn’t a burden and more of us need to realize that. Even the Bible says being single is a gift. I’ve been hurt so badly that I never want to be in a relationship again. I’m content. To an extent. I know what I want. I’m still waiting for him and I know one day he is coming back.

That’s something else I want to talk about. Love. I don’t know what this bull shit is y’all are calling love is these days but I want no part in it. My love doesn’t boast. I never felt the need to go public and I don’t have a single picture of him and I together. But I have every moment in my head that can’t be erased. Love doesn’t lie. I didn’t. Love isn’t quick to anger but we all have flesh. Love doesn’t sin. Love is UNCONDITIONAL. True love is like that of a child.

After tearing my family apart, moving out, giving up, I didn’t think twice about it. I had an agenda. It was me. I fulfilled that more than once. It was selfish and love is not. I can’t say I would undo it. If I did, I’d never learn from it and I have.

I love my ex husband. He’s one of the smartest, most stupidest, funniest men I know. I wish he were my friend. He isn’t but this isn’t that story yet. He taught me a lot. He’d be proud if he knew me today but I’m not proud of him. He still hurts me but that’s my fault.

What I guess I’m trying to get at because this is getting long and (Moose just grabbed the gas to light a fire) don’t give up on love or someone you love. If you did wrong, say it. I’m sorry and meaning it aren’t words to choke on. Especially because tomorrow isn’t promised. Who cares what everyone else thinks. I personally don’t. I don’t gossip, I will listen to your problems judgment free. I don’t lie and won’t spare you the truth for the sake of feelings if asked.

I’ve done everything wrong. I related personally on so many levels. Lifetime would sign me over to and HBO series. I’d be bigger than the Game of Thrones. Moose just sat a chair on fire so I gotta go!