Good Morning! I’m currently waiting on my little sister to wake up and make coffee. I could do it myself, but it taste better when she makes it. I can hear her now. She just told the boys to be quiet and not wake anyone else up. They woke me up about 2 hours ago. It’s like they have a contest as to which one can be the loudest. Pretty sure Hayes, my son takes the cake. Being cardinal signs, we are loud natural born leaders.

It’s strange now coming back to finish what I started this morning. Where as I was laying on the couch listening to kids play, now I’m sitting on my back patio burning the midnight oil. Literally, mosquitos are horrible. Listening to the cicadas, wishing I didn’t have a care in the world. I do, too many honestly. My heart is restless tonight.

I wish I could pin point the exact cause but there’s too many. Most of my worries are not my own, it’s for others and it’s always like that. I know worrying doesn’t make a difference, I know that some how everything will work out how it’s supposed to. I wish there was a reset button, a switch to flip a way to make it all ok. The only thing I can do is put a smile on my face and one foot in front of the other.

Today was actually a pretty good day for me. I went to church with some friends, had lunch, out on the boat, tucked my babies in this evening. Pretty simple, the way I like things. Today also marked one week I didn’t have a drop of alcohol. Pretty sure I’ve been down this road more times then I can count. It’s not easy, but neither am I.

Life is going by faster than I am able to keep up. I’ve tried being there for everyone but myself. Before I know it, I’m back in the same boat I just got out of but I’m taking on water. It seems like a cycle that’s never ending. It does end though, because I actually see it. It’s something I have always known. I have been too tired from running but it’s time to hit it straight on. I guess what happens when your back is against the wall…you start pushing back. I’m going to find a way to push my way back to the start line. I just hope y’all are ready when I take off. 😘